America x Reader x Country: Regret

America x Reader x Country Intro

This is a story that goes along with my recent fanfiction, America x Reader: Angst.

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(Reader's POV)
You were currently driving to the _(preferred way to travel)_, whilst ignoring the buzzing of your phone, each buzz indicating a new text message. For the past two weeks, it's always been the same routine;  particularly when it came to Al-...to him. Those calls he makes for you, left on the answering machine, or the many texts he sent you, nonstop. You ignored them all…ignored him. Especially him...what he said to you that day...

~Flashback~
"You're right, it's not my fault. It is not even _(Random Bitch's Name)_ fault. It's your fault, ______." His voice rose in loudness, brimming with confidence. "You know, _(Random Bitch Name)_ was right about you and your jealousy!"

You blinked in surprise, "Al-"

He waved it away, "If you had a problem with my relationship, you could've just left me and her in peace. God, you're so infuriating! You were always there! You had all those chances to get away, but you chose to stay!!! Every day, I've had to deal with your lies and fake smiles. Couldn't you at least try to be happy for me, ______!? “Alfred clenched his hands to fists.

"Every day...I've realised more and more, that I'm drifting away from you...Every day, I've tried to lose you in the crowd or something...and yet...you stayed with me...I...and I kept coming back to you...why...why did you stayed with me, when both of us knew that we" he gestured to you and himself. "We knew it would had never happened..."
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You shook your head, not wanting to think about that. Your heart clenched tightly in your chest, whilst you tried to ignore the obvious pain of someone who lost someone dear to them. I can't help but to think of what Ciel Phantomhive, a character from Black Butler, says: "And I'm afraid when something is truly lost, one can never get it back again." then again...that's probably just me...

However, thoughts of...him kept clouding your mind, forcing you to pull over at a secluded bridge. Once you were out of your car, you went to the side, wanting to breathe in some fresh air. You sighed, ignoring the familiar chill of the weather, the carbon dioxide forming a white cloud in the air. You tried not to think about it, but alas, it couldn't be prevented.

~Flashback~


I love you, Alfred..."

You quickly gave him a kiss on the lips. You heard his breath caught in his chest, you felt his heart thumping wildly against your chest. Breaking the kiss, you stepped away from him. "...Goodbye, Alfred..." With that you walked away.

Walking away from him was hard; it was like knives stabbing you in the chest, with every step you took.

"This is for the best, Alfred. I'm sorry." After that you walked away. Away from him.

Whilst you were walking, tears were running down your face, with you not bothering to wipe them away. You, being blinded by the overwhelming emotions and the blurry vision, you failed to realised that there was young lady in front of you...until you bumped against her.

"O-Oh, I'm sorry! I wasn't watching where I was going..." you mumbled to her. The girl looked at you, slightly shocked by your tearstained face, before realisation overtook her features. "H-Hey, you're that girl! Y'know the one who stayed with that poor guy...is he okay...a-are you okay..?" You blinked, now wondering if anyone saw Alfred yelling at you. The lady, nodding at your silence, asked, "You love him, don't you?" she said bluntly.

Your chest tightened once more, with you slowly nodding. "Yes...but he doesn't love me back..." She gave you a sad smile, "...well...I'm sorry for that...but I'm sure you'll find someone even better! (her thoughts) 'that or if that jackass comes around...' You nodded slowly, wondering if that was true, would you love another…? And would he love you back?
“Hey, _(random girl’s name)_! We’re back!” You and the stranger looked up, the lady nodded and waved to her friends. “…Well I better be going, now…I wish the best of luck for you…okay?” She smiled once again at you and started to walk away. However, when she was three feet away from you, you called after her. “W-Wait!” you called, whilst she turned around. “Are you still going to be in the mall?” Seeing a hesitant nod from her, you continued.
You quickly removed a necklace that Alfred gave to you as a birthday gift. Looking at it, you could still hear his voice, the words he said to you when he gave you this gift.
”I’m sorry if this isn’t much…but this is for you…So whenever you’re lonely, or sad, or whatever, you can always think of me, The Hero!”
You looked at it a bit longer, before finally giving it to the lady. “If you see him, could you give this to him..? I…I think it’s better that he keep it…” you murmured. With that you walked away and went straight to your apartment.

~present time~
You breathe in and out, calming your nerves. You sighed again, shaking your head in self-pity. "I shouldn't be acting like this...besides, I'm finally going to _(2nd favourite country)_! " you said, trying to find some reassurance that everything's going to be fine. You started walking towards your car, when you felt calm enough.

~Timeskip~

at preferred way to travel
You carried your suitcase around, looking for your seat. Luckily, at this time, there wasn't lot of passengers. 'Probably, because it is 2:30 in the morning...' you thought, tiredly. Finally, finding your seat, you quickly took the seat by the window.

"Good morning, everyone! Hope that you're still awake to listen to me, but, this is your captain, speaking! We are now ready to go to _(2nd favourite country)_, so please, remain in your seats, relax and enjoy." You closed your eyes as you listened to the flight attendant safety guide speech. Moving around in your seat, you looked out the window, your thoughts of him, still in your mind. "Oh, one more thing folks, please turn off any electronic devices, and refrain from turning them on. Thank you" the captain turned off the radio.

Doing so, you tried to go to sleep, awaiting what is in store for you.

~Meanwhile~
Alfred sighed again, as he listened to your voicemail. "Hi, sorry I can't get to you right now, but leave a message and I'll call you back!" Hearing the beep, he started to speak. "_-_____...please pick up...I...I'm just calling again...Y'know, wanting to say that I'm sorry...but I'm guessing that you're not even going to pick up..." Alfred sighed, leaning against the wall, wondering what he could say next.

"I-uh...*sighs*...I don't know what to do, when you walked away from me that day...I-I've been thinking of you, nonstop! It's like..." Alfred growled, pressing his hand to his forehead, then running his hand through his sandy-blonde hair. "it's just that you make me feel different...a good different...especially when you...when you kissed me..." Alfred touched his lips with his fingertips, trying to remember yours against his.

"I don't know how to explain this, but...it felt right...I've never felt this way before, even with _(random bitch)_! You...I..." Alfred sank to the ground, resting his head against the wall, his legs stretched out. "I love you too, _____...I'm just sorry that I didn't realise till now...please..."

Alfred ended the call, his heart filled with sadness, regret and loneliness. He pulled his knees to his chest, resting his forearms on top of his knees.

~flashback~
(Alfred's POV)
______ walked up to me slowly, her voice, echoing in my mind. 'I love you, Alfred...' My heart was thumping very fast against my chest, my breath caught in my throat. I felt my mind gone blank, as she put her lips upon mine. It felt right somehow, I hesitantly kissed back, when she pulled away. "Good bye, Alfred..." and walked away...from me. My mind was screaming at me, my heart thumping as well, 'Go after her, you idiot!' I said in my mind. I watched her retreating form, each step stabbing me in the heart. I wanted to go after her, and say sorry to her a million times and kiss her as if there was no tomorrow. I blinked at what I just thought. Looking down at the engagement ring, I remembered something.

~Flashback within a Flashback~ (inception! sorry I wanted to type that. I regret nothing >.)~

"Thanks, _____! I knew you would be with me on this one!" I hugged her with excitement! My hands still on her shoulder, I looked straight into her eyes, "Aww, man! I have to look for a ring!" I exclaimed. I ran out of ______'s apartment, not bothering to say goodbye....but I thought I heard a soft cry, and my name...and I stumbled, conflicted to go back and check on her...but I shook my head. 'It's probably my imagination...

~Timeskip~
I pondered over the selection of rings...finally finding the perfect one, I motioned to the lady. She smiled at me, and asked, "Have you chosen a ring, sir?" I nodded handing her the ring. She looked at it carefully, and nodded. "Perfect choice, sir." After paying for the ring, the picture of _____ and I went out of my wallet. I was about to get it, when the lady reached for it. I watched her as she looked at the smiling faces of ____ and me.

"This is a really cute photo of you and her girlfriend! She's a lucky lady!" I blushed heavily at her sudden comment, reaching for the photo, as she handed it back to me. "N-no, you've got it wrong. T-That's my friend..." I turned my head to the side. The lady looked confused, but nodded slowly. "Oh! My mistake...well I'm sure she's happy for you..." I nodded and walked out the door.

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I went back to my house, pondering over what the lady said about _____ and me.
'..._____ and me....' I thought about it, but I didn't think she and me would date...I mean we're best friends, nothing more...right?

I shook my head, a strange feeling in my stomach, and my heart beating faster than normal. I looked at the ring, and for some reason _____'s face popped into my mind.

'W-what?' I tried thinking of _(random bitch)_ but ____ kept replacing her.

'Is this what I'm supposed to feel with _(random bitch)_? Then why don't I?
(his inner voice)that's because you love ______, idiot!' I blinked at the thought. I mean, I want to get married...have kids...to have her by my side...I shook my head. "If _____ had a problem with me dating someone else, she could have said so, right?"

~Present Time~
(Alfred's POV)
I sighed, knowing that ____ really did love me. And I love her back.








But the worse part. She left me when I broke her...




If I could have another chance I'll tell you, ______