America x Reader: ANGST

America x Reader

WARNING. SAD. THIS IS SAD. Part one?

Author's Note:
So, I don't know about you guys...but I'm the type of fan who loves to read sad endings. Whether it be 'angst, death, betrayal, or even more betrayal'...I like them. I don't know, I mean...happy endings are great and all, but...Happy endings are best when they're bittersweet... That sums it up, don't you think? I like to add a pinch or a ton of reality.

But please, Enjoy.
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You walked reluctantly behind the two happy couple, who was laughing, smiling, having the time of their lives. That couple is Alfred and _(random girl you really hate)_. They have been together for about the last three years...if you don't count the first date anniversary: which is today. Which just means that they've been going out for four years. Your heart clenched tightly in your chest, as you watched Alfred kissed her on the lips. She giggled. "I love you." Alfred whispered to her. She smiled brightly, and answered back. "And I love you, Alfie."

Oh how you wish, he would say that to you. And only you. How you wished that he asked you out but not her.

'If only he knew what I see in her...it's not right...it doesn't feel right...'



A/N: Instead of typing the 'random girl you really hate,' I'm just going to type in '_Random Bitch_.'

~Flashback~

At McDonalds

"_____, there's something I need to tell you." Alfred said in a serious tone. You looked up from your food. "Yes?" Alfred look straight into your _(e/c)_ orbs, "I'm going to ask _(Random Bitch Name)_ to be my girlfriend."

You sat upright, breathing heavily, your heart thumping loudly against your chest. "Wh-what..." Alfred frowned. He didn't expect his best friend to react like this. "...I said, that I'm going to ask her out." He gave you a confused look. You sank in disappointment and picked at your food. Alfred, being Alfred, finished his food quickly and grabbed your hand. "Let's go outside!" You blushed at his warmth from his hand in yours, whilst he was pulling you to Central Park.

The sun shined brightly in the sky, children laughed aloud in the playground. Alfred walked beside you, still holding your hand. You were still blushing, but you didn't mind his hand wrapped around yours. It felt right Alfred removed his hand and stopped in the middle of the path. "...Alfred..?" Still looking forward, he simply stated, "I'm still asking her, _____." Your chest clenched tightly. "...W-why..?" you whispered. Alfred looked up in thought and smiled brightly when he thought of a reason. "Well, because she's just perfect for me." He walked excitedly in a wide circle around you. Moving his hands for more explanation. "You know her, ______! You've seen her! She's smart, and fun...and beautiful! She's got these eyes-that just-and this hair-wow! And her smile!!!" He sighed in content.

You looked to the side, arms wrapped around your stomach. "T-That's great, Alfred! I'm happy for you!" you said half-heartily. He looked up at you and smiled. "Aww...don't worry , ______! Even if I'm in a relationship, that doesn't mean that I'll stop being your best friend." he gave you a playful punch to your shoulder. You looked at his childlike expression and couldn't help but to smile back. You gave him a hug, "I know..."

~Present Time~

You sighed aloud at the memory, causing Alfred look up in surprise, his girlfriend huffing in annoyance. "Hey, _____! You're still here?" He laughed his signature laugh. "Alfred!!" He looked down at his girlfriend. "Yeah, babe?" She looked around with her puppy dog eye routine, "I think this is a great spot for a picture...don't you think so?" Alfred agreed, he grinned at you, whilst handing you his Iphone. "Is it okay if you take a picture of us, _(nickname you hate)_?" You gave him a sad smile, "Of course, what are friends for?"

~Timeskip~

You and Alfred were waiting for _(Random Bitch Name)_ who was in the loo. The minute she stepped into the ladies' room, Alfred started getting nervous. You were leaning on the wall, your arms crossed, watching Alfred. Alfred, on the other hand, was pacing back and forth, obviously nervous. You sighed and placed your hand on his shoulder. "Hey...it's going to be alright..." He nodded at your reassurance. Alfred shyly smiled, rubbing the back of his neck. "I'm just nervous, that's all...I mean-" He put a hand in his pocket, pulling out a small box."Today's the day, you know?"

You glared at the box with contempt. Staring straight into his eyes, you smiled, yet hurt was shown in your eyes...which Alfred failed to notice. "Yeah..." Alfred looked behind you and turned around suddenly, shoving the box back into his pocket. You closed your eyes, like you do these past four years, wishing that this was all a bad dream.

"Oh, hey, Alfie!" You felt yourself pushed to the sidelines, once more, when Alfred turned to embrace his girlfriend. You gritted your teeth. 'No, I shouldn't act like this. I should've been over him, by now...If he's happy, then I'm happy...right?' "Right?" asking yourself. Your head was aching, along with your chest. You felt a tear coming down. You quickly wiped it away, and took a deep breath.

"Hey, you. Weirdo. Alfred went go get something for me. Told us to wait here." She yelled. Yup, _(Random Bitch's Name)_ hated you. Hated you when she first saw you.

You turned around and saw the hate in her eyes. "O-Oh, thank you, guess I didn't notice..." She rolled her eyes, while chewing the gum in her mouth like the cow she is. "God, are you always this stupid? Honestly, why does he even bother with you?"

You looked around, looking at the shops in the mall. "...I was stupid enough to allow Alfred to make the biggest mistake of his life. But he came to me for his decision. He wanted what were my thoughts. I was stupid enough to lie to him-"

She scoffed, "Oh cut the lovey-dovey crap. What I'm asking is how can you live with the thought that you lost? You lost him to me." _(Random Bitch Name)_ shook her head, "You could've had left; left behind the broken heart and dreams you had with him. You could've have gotten a real life." She stopped to blow a bubble with her gum. "Instead, you're here being the third wheel, the clingy one. The one who thinks that Alfred will pity on you and your moping...Get a life, _____. Or, did you never had one..?"

You thought about her words. Well...it made you angry, that's for sure. You shrugged casually, "You tell me to get a life, _(Random Bitch Name)_...since we're in the mall, we should go shopping. I hear that they're selling lives at the mall, you should get one," You looked at her straight in the eyes, "You would be their number one customer."


"Is it just me or do I sense jealousy? In fact, jealousy for the past four years?" She smirked at your silence. "Oh yeah, pretend to ignore me. That's what Alfred has been doing to you, ever since we started dating." You shifted your head slightly towards her voice.

It's true. Ever since he started a relationship with her, he's been ignoring you. Well, not really, ignoring more like...using you. Whenever he needed something for his girlfriend, his answer was you.

When he plans to throw a party for her. He goes to...
You.

When Alfred wanted to marry her, he went to you...this was the last straw. You've dealt with him, because as you said before, if he's happy, then you're happy. Even if his hanging out with you was just for the benefits of him and _(random bitch name)_, his time with you meant more to you. But when he told you of his plan to marry her...well...

Let's just say that Alfred F. Jones, without realising it, tore your heart out of your chest and ran it over with his car when he was driving away. Whilst you were crying, and he was choosing a ring.

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You were pushed whilst the crowd started to gather around the couple. You turned around, not bearing to watch. The very words were already killing you slowly. You closed your eyes, as the crowd started to get bigger, thus louder. "AWWWW, oh this is sooo cute!!!" "This is totally going on YouTube!" A guy on your right said. Your breathing grew heavy, your thoughts muddled together.

You breathed in and out slowly, listening to the voice of your love.

"_(Random Bitch Name)_, we've been together for four years now. Today is our Fourth year anniversary of our first date. Over these years, I have grown to love you, both the outside and the inside. I love you...and I would love for you to be something more, than a girlfriend..."

Not bothering to wipe away, you felt tears running down your cheeks, as Alfred continued with his proposal.

"_(Random Bitch Full Name)_, will you marry me?"


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It seemed everyone was holding their breath, anticipating the woman's answer. She looked around, a thousand emotions, clearly, on her face. Confusion, Surprise, Wonder, Agitated, so it appeared. She looked down at Alfred, who on his knees, was getting nervous by the second. "...Babe..?" She didn't respond. He cleared his throat and put the ring on her finger.

Feeling some weight on the ring finger of her left hand, _(Random Bitch Name)_ quickly shook her head.

"N-No..!"

_____ turned around quickly in surprise, ignoring the dramatic gasps in the crowd. _____ watched as _(Random Bitch Name)_ removed the ring from her finger and gave it to Alfred. _____ could easily tell what she was whispering to Alfred, "I-I'm sorry, Alfred...I just-...I just can't!" With that she ran off, embarrassed. The crowd drifted off silently, catching up on their schedule. _____ remained standing in place. "...well...I guess this video is a failed proposal..." a guy whispered.


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Your POV

Alfred was still on the floor, staring at the ground, specifically where the ring was. He wasn't speaking, nor moving. He wasn't even showing any emotion in his features. You walked slowly up to him. You kneeled down, reaching hesitantly to touch his shoulder. Alfred looked like he could break in a million pieces by one touch.

"..Al-Alfred..." Alfred flinched at the sound of your voice, but said nothing. You looked around, seeing no one, but a few security guards, and a small amount of shoppers. You bit your bottom lip, wondering what to say. "I'm sorry..." Alfred breathed in and out heavily. _{"Shut up..."}

You didn't quite hear him very well, "...I'm sorry that it didn't go the way you planned...and I..." you trailed off. Sure Alfred and you were the best of friends, you told each other everything, and you two helped each other in every way. But this...you had no idea of what to do.

"Alfred, it's not your fa-" You were cut off when Alfred suddenly stood up, annoyance, anger, hate in his eyes. The worst part was it was towards you.

"_{You're right, it's not my fault. It is not even _(Random Bitch's Name)_ fault.} It's your fault, ______." His voice rose in loudness, brimming with confidence. "You know, _(Random Bitch Name)_ was right about you and your jealousy!"

You blinked in surprise, "Al-"

He waved it away, "If you had a problem with my relationship, you could've just left me and her in peace. God, you're so infuriating! You were always there! You had all those chances to get away, but you chose to stay!!! Every day, I've had to deal with your lies and fake smiles. Couldn't you at least try to be happy for me, ______!? " Alfred clenched his hands to fists.

"Every day...I've realised more and more, that I'm drifting away from you...Every day, I've tried to lose you in the crowd or something...and yet...you stayed with me...I...and I kept coming back to you...why...why did you stayed with me, when both of us knew that we" he gestured to you and himself. "We knew it would had never happened..."

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Alfred finally noticed the streams of tears running down your face. You were still on your knees, looking at the ground...anywhere that wasn't him. "_-_____, I'm so-" You stood up and started walking away, before stopping. You sighed aloud, and shook your head. You turned to face him, wiping the tears away.

"You asked me why I stayed with you all these years. It's because...I love you, Alfred. I realised I loved you, when you stayed with me, even when we went to different colleges. I loved you when I first met you. I love you..."

You walked closer to him, Alfred staring blankly at you. "...I love you, Alfred...but obviously, you don't have the same feelings for me." Fresh tears stung your eyes, threatening to fall out, but you kept them at bay. "This is goodbye, Alfred...

Before you told me about the proposal, I was offered _(dream job)_ in _(second favourite country)_. I didn't want to leave you, but I kept it anyway...

I love you, Alfred..."

You quickly gave him a kiss on the lips. You heard his breath caught in his chest, you felt his heart thumping wildly against your chest. Breaking the kiss, you stepped away from him. "...Goodbye, Alfred..." With that you walked away.

Walking away from him was hard, it was like knives stabbing you in the chest, with every step you took.

"This is for the best, Alfred. I'm sorry."

The End?